11-9-09

Smoke much...
No reason

12-9-09

Cant even zz well..
Woke up at fren's house..
suddenly get a call
said..
my dearest uncle cant live long....
family said" u may need to come back today..."
my heart was shattered .....
Heard de voices through the phone was all sobz sounds...
After i heard it..
i cried ......
Uncle was the one who care me most ....
I didnt expect to hear tht news..
in the early in the morning ...

@12pm ,
drove back to penang as soon as possible .... sms to those frens who gonna meet me on sunday..
said sorry..cant join.. but i didnt say why..
reach thr at 5pm ...
how fast i drove? i do not know...

When reach...
I saw coffin...
I dont dare to go near to see him .......
I never had de chance to gv him my 1st salary...
i rmb i told him " U must healthy ya,den i bring u go eat nice nice food with my 1st pay.."
I never had de chance to tell him " I love you."
But...at the end..
I went near the coffin.. and saw him...
He was so peacefully sleeping.... like a baby boy....
I was praying in the heart ...
Hope he is in heaven...
till thr till 12am ++...
Exhausted ..tired ... reach home then faint asap...

Next morning..
Sunday
woke up at 7am..
went back thr..
See all de relatives...
come and pay the last respect...
When at night..
only go and see him again ....
Heart was pain again....

Monday....
which is today...
Paying the last respect....
Watching them carry his coffin into de van...
my mum...relatives were crying .....
I have no tears...
but ..
when saw his coffin went into cremation
......
i was...
speechless..
He is gone..
Forever....
I cant let him see how happy am i now... with my new job...my 1st pay of salary...
..........
till ashes he is gone
He alwys in my heart ...

May he rest in peace.
May God bless my family .

Till here i blog. Just reach Pj. So tired . So exhausted. 3 days non-stop. Didnt barely touch my phone. Was mourning . Was speechless. And now. writing it here.just to express..Im sad for my lost.
I do love him. It is the 1st time.. I grown up till now... attend ppl's funeral.. and tht was de uncle tht love me most.

- May you rest in peace my dear uncle. Yan, love you dearly. -